May is mental health awareness month. Some people may feel being invisible is the worst feeling in the world. But it can have its advantages if we look at it from a different perspective.
To go from being invited to practically anything a blogger could, walking into rooms where people knew of your reputation before they actually met you and being well-known to crickets is quite the adjustment I’ve had to make. In the beginning, it was more of an ego adjustment than anything. The confusion surrounding how I go completely unnoticed, living unseen boggled my mind. To now living visibly invisible online when people would flock to read what you posted was a blow to my self-confidence for a minute.
Then the pandemic hit and I had nothing but time to adjust to what was going on. Things shifted tremendously in my life. I’ve now entered the season for my soul to grow deeper with God.
Being visibly invisible has taught me 3 invaluable lessons:
- How to be obedient to God’s will for my life especially during the bleakest of times. When I told God I would be a vessel for his purpose to be fulfilled through me, that meant I had to accept how that process would go.
- It’s okay if life slows down to almost a slow crawl. Sometimes God needs to remove everything that keeps us going because it kept us going away from him. The slowness gives us time to make more of an effort to be in Fellowship with God because there’s nothing that will divert our attention.
- God will still take care of all your needs even when you think you have to step up and take charge of the situation. Submitting to God means giving him complete reign over every single aspect. That includes how you will make a living, your finances, where you live, etc. Since doing so the process has been uncomfortable but I’m now in a place in my life that I want for nothing. I truly enjoy and like my life. I wouldn’t want my life to look like anyone else.
Essentially this time has allowed me to truly be isolated so I could open my eyes to the things that no longer served me, served a purpose or benefited my all-around well-being. It’s still a little unsettling at times to post and receive no engagement. But I have to remember that I’m not posting for likes. I’m posting to create an impact.
That impact whether I see it or not is the outcome that justifies my obedience to living visibly invisible.
This isn’t a cry for help or attention. It’s something that can or will happen to anyone. As I’m rereading the entire Bible I realized that I’m going through my own wilderness season. My prayer is that I am more like Joshua and Caleb than the older generation Israelites. The ones who were unfaithful to God, complained & whined way too much and doubted God when he made a promise because it took too long in their opinion for the promise to come to life. I mean God brought them out of Egypt but they thought living in bondage was better than the unknown of the wilderness under God’s guidance. My prayer is to believe that God has a path I can follow even through the most uncharted or tumultuous terrain.
At the end of the day, speaking the truth God has placed in me is what I must do. That truth has to continue to be shared. Yes, I will readjust to be strategic to reach the right people. Yes, I will get creative to grab people’s attention.
But that foundation of the truth will remain solid.
If that means living visible invisible for that truth to make the impact that will share who God is and has been to me, then that’s what I am willing to do. Because God will continue to provide for me. My faithfulness and obedience will ensure that my finances will be covered. And guess what? They have been in ways I never imagined they would.
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