Protect my life (soul), for I am godly and faithful;
Psalm 86:2 AMP
O You my God, save Your servant, who trusts in You [believing in You and relying on You, confidently committing everything to You].
Three years ago Hurricane Harvey came and decimated Southeast Texas. Fortunately, I was in California attending a conference. However, getting back was a nightmare and 10-day experience. It was also the beginning to the end of the life I fought so hard to build only to not be satisfied with anything.
Now here we are in 2020 with 2 possible hurricanes again coming to land.
I used to say that March was not my FAV month because I have experienced so much lost for like a decade every year. Didn’t know why but something majorly sad would happen every March. Then I was told if I didn’t change my thinking, it would keep happening. So I did. Learning to reframe how I react and see what is happening is challenging yet eye-opening.
I can’t control everything that happens to me but I can control how I allow it to infiltrate and disrupt my life.
August to me signifies new beginnings, new blessings. At least the number 8 does. Since this is the 8th month of the year I associate those good terms with this month.
When Hurricane Harvey washed through 3 years ago, it literally was washing away what I felt defined me. What I felt was dear to me. Little did I know that it was washing away all that was keeping me from God. Keeping me detached from God. Keeping me from being able to hear from God.
We all know 2018 was the worst year of my life. By August of that year I had literally lost it all (in my opinion). Again, little did I know that God was freeing me from the relationship I had with material possessions. And toxic people. Especially when I deserved so much better than what I was fighting to hold onto.
When I lost it all, I was able to be a little nimbler.
Last year I did my first 40-day fast. And the washing away of a lot of toxicity, negativity, burdens, responsibilities I gave myself, feelings, and thoughts happened. I remembered what I was told about March. So I made a conscientious decision to not let August become a month where I mourn loss. Especially when loss is necessary at times for growth, understanding or rebirth.
Now we’re in August 2020 and tomorrow I will have finished my first Daniel Fast. I won’t share about that fast too much now but I will say this. The washing away of one of the biggest things holding me back, keeping me stuck took place. I know it was God who so ever silently nudged me to do it. And I was able to hear him and do so immediately.
Divine completeness is represented by the number 3. Which to me means that whatever God was doing on my behalf is done. It’s now up to me to be obedient. I’ve come a long way since 2017 where I wasn’t able to hear God say, ”walk away from everything I am washing away for you”.
But lessons come in cycles especially if you’re hardheaded like I am. I really don’t know what tomorrow holds. But I do know one thing for sure; God is washing away my past because it’s no longer needed in order for me to grasp what God wants me to do and where He is taking me. I can’t let the memories of my past hold me hostage from the greatness and glory to come.
8 For once you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord; walk as children of Light [live as those who are native-born to the Light] 9 (for the fruit [the effect, the result] of the Light consists in all goodness and righteousness and truth), 10 trying to learn [by experience] what is pleasing to the Lord [and letting your lifestyles be examples of what is most acceptable to Him—your behavior expressing gratitude to God for your salvation].
Ephesians 5:8-10 AMP
Thank you for sharung your vulnerability so beautifully and powerfully!
Thank you!!