21 Now it is God who establishes and confirms us [in joint fellowship] with you in Christ, and who has anointed us [empowering us with the gifts of the Spirit]; 22 it is He who has also put His seal on us [that is, He has appropriated us and certified us as His] and has given us the [Holy] Spirit in our hearts as a pledge [like a security deposit to guarantee the fulfillment of His promise of eternal life].
2 Corinthians 1:21-22 Amplified Bible (AMP)
From the brink of death to restorative life.
Passing out 2.5 years ago in my classroom was a moment of the reality I was facing. From that moment until now I have been killing the spirits of resentment, depression, envy, bitterness, anger, frustration, being heart broken, the feeling of betrayal, negative thoughts, overcompensation, ideas that weren’t for me, beliefs that aren’t aligned with the relationship I seek with God, hurt, discouragement, feeling overwhelmed, relationship with money, seeking validation, harboring ill-intentions towards others, saving others from their own consequences, darkness drowning me to the point I almost stopped breathing. That’s a lot for one person to carry. And I carried that for most of my life.
After 6.5 months of intentional rest, I am finally to a place where I can think clearly, act accordingly without getting in my feelings and walk in alignment with God’s plan for my life. To be able to not work a full time job, rest as much as I needed, still have a roof over my head and food to eat is a blessing. I do not take for granted that God blessed me with this time and people who have supported me in this season of my life. This season was very much needed.
Before we continue let’s define what Myrrh means in this post.
Myrrh (an embalming oil) as a symbol of death.
I had to use myrrh to kill spirits that averted my attention away from God’s love, promises and purpose for me. It was a painfully, excruciating process but the lightness I feel today makes the journey worth it. Now that I’ve freed myself from dark spirits, I can seek God’s oil for my life.
The oil has always been there. I just didn’t know how to activate it with such a cluttered mind and spirits that took me in directions that were not even close to my purpose. So I am learning how to activate my oil now.
Tonight, I teach my first small group in over 15 years. It’s been awhile since I’ve done ministry work within a church and I’m beyond excited. I could not have gotten to this point unless I drenched myself in myrrh so my old self, thoughts, habits, actions, behavior, ideas could die. I was never as helpful as I thought I was to others when I was suffocating myself. Now that I can breath, I am in a healthier place to help others.
Now I’m seeking the oil that will bring forth the anointing of my God-given purpose. I am choosing to live from a spiritual perspective thus meaning I need to be able to truly let go of all earthly things such as titles, validation, materialism, etc.
This spiritual awakening began in my Jesus year but it has come to fruition 3 years later. Now I’m on this incredible journey to unlock and activate my oil.
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