Leading up to my 40th birthday was a twinge of excitement, nervousness and navigating the unknown. As I got closer, I realized it wouldn’t be a day that I wanted but a day that still ushered in gratefulness. The past 2 birthdays I spent the day alone. It was mixed feelings but at the end of the day, peace was what I received. And for that I was grateful. Living halfway across the country from friends and family also played into a mixed bag of emotions for a birthday that is supposed to have so much meaning. Or so I thought. The meaning of my birthday will always be appreciation that I made it to see another year. Now I did go to a Chicago Sky game, went to a Janet concert and ate some BBQ to celebrate my birthday. Things I wanted to do. I have no big lessons for this momentous occasion. I have no words of advice to share. I do have a realization that you can get to an age where you thought your life was supposed to look a certain way and it does not. However, it doesn’t take away from the blessed life you’re living. If you choose to view it that way. A good chunk of life has been lived. Lots of lessons learned. Lots of choices made. Lots of blessings received. All I want to say is I have so much more life to live. It’s now time for me to dream again because I was responsible for myself and others long enough. Let the ‘Go Get Your Blessings’ stage of my life commence.
P.S. I know this post is hella late but I really didn’t know how to address this day with so many emotions swirling around. But I’m accepting of where I am and looking forward to what’s to come.
Shout out to all July 1st babies.
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