Two years ago I started something I believed God called me to do. I worked for months leading up to officially sharing it with the world. My excitement, drive, determination and hunger for something more spiritually motivated me even when I knew I was receiving placated support from others. I launched it to a little support. A few people hopped on when I went live to teach about Fellowship. I quickly became disappointed in the lack of support after reaching out initially to quite a few people who said they would support once it was off the ground. None of that support materialized into anything.
I pushed through for a few months. I even had a local church who said they would be the covering of the sanctuary. The Pastor and I spoke in length and detail because his wife is a lawyer. So, I thought things would be done efficiently. And they were. Then communication waned between the church and me. Nothing happened. We just stopped communicating. The sanctuary wasn’t progressing, and I didn’t know how to reach out to them about the situation. Last year my mom told me their church was closing its doors. I was saddened to hear it. And also, sad I didn’t hear it from them directly. With that I knew any support I had outside of family wouldn’t be enough.
I made the decision to close it down in 2022. I had to go through the proper channels with the state because when I do things, I like to do them properly. Everything was handled so Soul Stimulators Sanctuary was closed in a proper manner. The website is only still up because I paid for it through 2026. It’ll just send people back to my blog here. And who knows something could happen between now and when it’s time to renew the domain.
After I launched in May 2021 I was already immersed deep into research. It was important that everything associated with the sanctuary be foundationally tied to the Bible.
The summer of 2021 I received an email that changed the course of where I knew God was taking me. It was to announce that applications were open for The Potter’s House School of Ministry. I went back and forth for about a week before I finally applied. When the fall semester started that’s when I put SSS on the back burner. As I got to know some of my fellows Ministers in Training I was in awe of the ministries they were creating or already part of.
As I got closer to the ladies in my prayer group (also from PHSOM) I realized that I didn’t need SSS in the way I initially thought. I started SSS in reaction (if I’m being honest) to a disagreement I had with the Pastor at my former church about the importance of fellowship especially when it came to online church members.
I had to reflect and see if I started Soul Stimulators Sanctuary out of good faith or to show that fellowship is possible so let me show you how it’s done. The following scripture came to mind;
Search me, God, and know my heart;
Psalm 139:23
test me and know my concerns.
Even with encouragement from one of the ladies in my prayer group, I went ahead and shuttered Soul Stimulators Sanctuary.
- I did it because if I’m going back to ministry it must be with good intentions and in good faith.
- I have to be focused on helping others and not proving a point.
- It is all about God’s glory and not pumping up my ego.
So these are the reasons I shut down Soul Stimulators Sanctuary. And when I know God has led me to the ministry I’m to serve within, I will go there.
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