I’m in the winter season of my life. I don’t believe or can recall if I’ve ever been in a winter season. I’m experiencing
deep loss
mourning
feeling restless
getting impatient
Even though I’ve felt those feelings before this is profoundly different.
This is how I felt before I realized that was part of the process. Loss is part of growth. And growth which unfortunately includes a winter season is required to move from one dimension of your life to the next. And I do mean in the spiritual sense.
I’m going to choose a new perspective to look at my winter season. It’s a time for me to have a deep rest in God knowing that He already knows what’s to come. I have had a feeling of nothing matters anymore but now understand that to mean earthly, tangible things just aren’t my focus or priority any longer.
I will need to truly sit and reflect on past decisions to see if God told me to do those things or if I just acted because something popped into my head. Maybe that’ll help me figure out how I am where I am. We’ll see.
Also to not rush this season as I had prayed a few years ago to have a sabbatical time because I felt my life was too much, too noisy and I was doing too many things depleting myself of any energy to put forth effort towards myself.
I was also out of fellowship with God and didn’t realize how that affected the hectic, chaos I dealt with in my life for years.
Now I see my winter season as a time to fall into deep fellowship with God as He prepares me for my next season; Spring a time of renewal, planting and new life.
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