Last year was my year of rest. I didn’t expect it yet much received. And appreciated. In my ‘Spiritually Becoming’ series I talked about how much I let go and was going to leave behind in 2020. Which stemmed from 2018. Until recently I didn’t realize how I was stuck. I was…
Stuck in a rut
Stuck in a paralysis
Stuck in fear
Stuck in a helplessness
Stuck in hurt
Stuck in disappointment
I need to get unstuck in order to move on. I never saw myself as a person who needed to get unstuck. I’ve always been able to go, do, lead, make decisions, act. That hasn’t been the case the past few years. If I want things to improve or go in a different direction then getting Unstuck is my 2021 priority.
- To get unstuck means I had to do inner work. I did. I spent all of 2020 just working on removing obstacles and blockage from my thinking. Not being able to think clearly has created a ditch where my dreams and ideas have gone to die.
- To get unstuck means I need to find the root that was holding me captive from moving forward and uproot it. I did for the most part let so much go. Surprisingly I don’t feel like I’ve neglected anyone including myself or am missing out on anything.
- To get unstuck means I had to get clear on what I wanted for myself, my blog and doing ministry work. I’m still working to get clear on ministry work but the work I’m currently doing, I really enjoy. Now the blog has a clear path. I just need to be committed and disciplined (which I’m capable of both beyond measure) so I can shift my blog to the clear direction ahead.
To dream again is what I want most of all.
The time is now for me to show myself that it’s okay to start over. It’s okay to change direction. It’s okay to be in a completely different circle. Most importantly, it’s okay to not be married to the life I thought I should have or be today.
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