Sometimes life suddenly changes without warning. Or does it? I’ve known for a while that I needed to step away from a leadership role. I wasn’t ready to walk away. I love what I’m doing. But it’s not fun for me anymore. I thrive on meeting goals. Succeeding in doing things. Excelling in anything I take on. Being able to take all the things I’ve learned and share them with others. Help others reach their goal.
I just didn’t want to leave the job incomplete. I knew I wasn’t going to stay in this position for longer than 3 years anyway. I don’t think anyone believed me.
I wanted to set out and make sure it would be easier for the next person. And that’s what I’m currently doing. Tying up loose ends and putting things in place so the next person doesn’t have to create from scratch like I had to. It’s not an easy decision but I see more for what I created and myself.
But when you don’t have the right people around you there’s only two options. To either replace the ones who can’t cut it or walk away. So that’s what I’m going to do.
Instead of getting blamed when people don’t follow through with what they said they would do by a specific deadline, I’m going to walk away.
Instead of being told I’m being mean because I expect people to do what they said they would do, I’m walking away.
Instead of coming behind people and doing their tasks in addition to my own so the ship doesn’t sink, I’m walking away.
I had a few heart to heart conversations with trusted advisors. I realized I expected people to put in the same effort for themselves that I was putting in to help them reach their goal. But I can’t force or make people do more than what they choose. Nor can I make or force anyone to do what’s required to get what they want. However, I refuse to do the work and let other people get rewarded for doing the bare minimum.
Am I okay with walking away?
I was asked this by several people. In fact, I was asked am I okay walking away and letting the ship sink? I said I would have to be. My peace is more important than trying to save people who don’t want to be saved.
People have decided they want things their way, now mind you they have not actually been successful in that field and refuse to listen to suggestions from those who have. In fact, I was told that giving constructive criticism was not something they wanted to receive. So I’m at an impasse.
I don’t sink.
I don’t fail when I know what to do to self-correct.
But I can’t self-correct other people when they are comfortable where they are. I’m ready to move to bigger and better things. And if that means I have to go on without a bulk of the people I’m currently working with, then so be it.
I have decided to finish out the plan I had for the year. But the vision for what I created will not be mine to realize. And that’s a hard pill to swallow. It hurts but I can’t dwell on it. I have my own blog to work on and a podcast that I actually enjoy sharing my life and business lessons on.
Do I think this sucks? Absolutely.
I worked hard to build something but I can’t stay in an environment where I expect excellence and I feel I’m receiving subpar performance. Also, I don’t want to stay somewhere where people need to be lead day by day, step by step. I feel if you are given a task and a deadline with direction no one should have to continually ask you what’s going on. I hate micromanging. Yet, that seems to be the only way some people complete tasks. If you missed the deadline then you shouldn’t be upset when someone steps in and asks why wasn’t the task completed?
But alas, when I do those things it becomes a bigger issue than necessary.
And I’m tired. I’m tired of people saying they want things and expecting 1 person to do all the work. Yet, they feel some type of entitlement to the rewards. I’m also tired of putting my personal reputation on the line for people who lack follow through skills. I refuse to continue to reach out to my personal network and ask them to work with people who have to be lead from A to B.
I know I demand excellence from myself at all times.
I pay attention to details and deadlines.
That’s why I have received many blog opportunities. But I can’t associate myself with what I feel is subpar effort and work. That’s not what I want to be associated with. EVER!
So walking away from something I love is hard. It was a hard, emotional decision I had to come to terms with. And a trusted advisor said, it may take 2 or 3 leaders to get what I started where it’s supposed to be.
And I have to be okay that that leader may not be me.